Hi all, I'm away from home right now tending to personal business. My father is very very ill..and it doesn't look good(very serious lung cancer, and complications). I've been really stressed as of late. But I figured I could come here and take a break because I've seen the dedication in this forum, and from the SC. What do I come back to? Well I know I'm only a noob. But Derek, I really respect you for what you've accomplished, and will continue to achieve. I just recommended BCM to my brother and others because of YOUR DEDICATION. The sim is awesome. But you and its fans are far beyond that in your dedication. I've never seen a community like this one and am very happy to see its still here. I do much more reading on here it seems than acually playing. Take a break and enjoy life. I've had a similar situation as you and know in some ways how you must feel. I am blind, and am an orientation and mobility instructor...much to the chagrin of many in the field who think that blind people shouldn't do this job.(heh..I really should talk to you about it sometime) Every single day I'm told I can not do this job, and how unsafe it is. But my students are the ones who keep me here. Why? Because they know how dedicated I am to them...and my belief in them is unwavering. Sure they call me tough, hard and #$@#!~ But they know that I believe in them and love them. So though each and everyday is filled with people calling me names sometimes, or telling me how little I am and that I'd never be as good a teacher as them because I am blind I'm still here because of my own personal belief/dedication and my students seeing that leadership come through. "Funny thing about leadership..." I believe one of the posters said in another thread. They say they see that in me. So thats why I'm still here with them. But despite all the naysayers....I DID IT!!!! I'm here ...and I'm not going anywhere. It was hard getting here..and is harder staying here. But I'm not going anywhere. I feel much the same way when looking at you SC. YOU DID IT!!! Oh well...I'm sorry for rambling. But hey man I just want you to know I respect you for all you have done. Again, sorry for the long post. I do hope you read it. Not sure when I'll be back. But I'll keep checking the forums. 19